Is it just me?
As horrible as it sounds, I hate reading to an audience. And, no, my kids don't count. They think it's funny when I ham it up. But adults wouldn't. Okay, I take that back. MOST adults wouldn't.
When I read in public, I feel awkward, so my words come out awkward. I lose my place constantly because of my nerves and read like an awful operator recording. Monotone. Boring. Dreadful. I want to spice it up, but am afraid I'll look like a fool. Then I embarrass myself even more by flubbing the words.
Does this happen to anyone else?
Recently, I read an exerpt from my novel "Rules of Protection" at my writer's group meeting. It's a humorous story, and I got the laughs I expected, but felt completely ridiculous the entire time I read aloud, red-faced and stuttering. The people I read to were great. Very supportive. And they liked what I read. Fortunately for them, I write somewhat better (I hope!) than I read aloud.
And yes, I know...practice makes perfect. Blah, Blah, Blah. I guess we can't all be good at everything. And I'm sure with time I'll improve. But until then, I'm offering an official apology to anyone who plans to listen to me read aloud. May the force be with you.